Wk 6…WOW!!  Ask you shall receive!! 

   
 

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Wk 5….Me vs my Blueprint – My Demons won’t win this time

 http://youtu.be/mWRsgZuwf_8

      
The end of week four and all of week five were a great lesson in my blueprint not wanting to be changed.  I definitely noticed a bit of a struggle between what I know was learning to do and what my old blueprint wanted me to do.

I was on a business trip and had just completed a very successful sales presentation, I was so excited to have extra time ,  so I was headed to take a little R&R at the beach  before my flight home.

I stopped at Starbucks to do a little bit of computer work and wrap up the week. As I got out of my rental vehicle I walked around the back to get my computer and I barely bent over and my whole back spasmed, I  had to sit down quickly or I would’ve fallen.

So what to do?  At that moment it was all I could do to put 1 foot in front of the other, but I was sure this too would pass, so I painfully gathered my things and went into Starbucks, sat down and did some computer work as the tightness & pain made it about impossible to sit it think. .  

As the pain grew increasingly worse, I  decided it was time to make my way back to the hotel I had already checked out of and see if they’d allow me to use the pool or the hot tub to loosen up before I attempted to get to the airport. 

Well wouldn’t you know it when I needed it the most I got to the hotel and this day, of all days they had a private party so the pool in the hot tub were closed. At that moment in that massive pain, I clearly thought about giving up. It hurt to stand, it hurt to walk, it hurts to sit and most of all it hurt to breathe .

I looked around at all the happy people going on with their lives, going out to the beach having fun, I cried behind my dark sunglasses and for the first time in a long time I thought about giving up.

And I sat there and I thought about what does giving up look like, How could I live in pain all the time, all alone and fulfill my dreams when I couldn’t even move. Then I shook myself and thought you can do this, you can do anything and you’re changing your life right now don’t give up!  I thought about how much I wanted to make the master key program work for me, how much I wanted to finally achieve my dreams and not allow the illness and injuries that always get in my way stop me.

And then I thought about how much I wanted to make the master key program work for me, how much I wanted to finally achieve my dreams and not allow the unpredictable, sometimes unbearable illness and injuries that always get in my way stop me.

And then I thought, God has a plan for me and I can’t stop, I have to fulfill that. 

  
 So I gathered my senses and I just went and sat by the water and thing myself “you can figure it all out, you can do this!” 
I shuffled my feet like a 90 year old,  breathed shallow breathes and each minute muscle movement was a very conscious and orchestrated process.

 I made my way to the ocean and I sat.
As tears stream down my face and the massive waves rolled up on the beach I started to think about all that I’m learning in the master key and how much inner struggle,  that week in  particular I’d been having.

Then it hit me, could my back going out have been my blueprint fighting back? Could it once again be trying to stop me from moving forward? Because if that was true this time it definitely stopped me dead in my tracks! What was life trying to tell me?????

Lost in the ebb & flow of the ocean, wind & birds, I allowed myself to be hypnotized and let the waves take me away to a different place.  Atthat moment,  I rose above the pain and the words of my DMP came to mind and there, I committed to make this happen no matter what pain or obstacle confronted me or who got in my way and no matter how much my Subby and my blueprint fought back!

   
 When they stop me in my tracks maybe? Yes maybe they would sometimes and maybe I’d have a small setback but in that moment, in that pain, in that state of fear, I rose above it all and I committed that no matter what tried to take me off course, I would always get back on & always take care of me while moving toward my Pure Health & Legacy!! 

I may move slowly toward my goal at times my health reminds me to slow & look at what is going I so I can heal it, BUT I WILL FORGE A NEW PATH!!!

Wk 5….Me vs my Blueprint – My Demons won’t win this time

 http://youtu.be/mWRsgZuwf_8

      
The end of week four and all of week five were a great lesson in my blueprint not wanting to be changed.  I definitely noticed a bit of a struggle between what I know was learning to do and what my old blueprint wanted me to do.

I was on a business trip and had just completed a very successful sales presentation, I was so excited to have extra time ,  so I was headed to take a little R&R at the beach  before my flight home.

I stopped at Starbucks to do a little bit of computer work and wrap up the week. As I got out of my rental vehicle I walked around the back to get my computer and I barely bent over and my whole back spasmed, I  had to sit down quickly or I would’ve fallen.

So what to do?  At that moment it was all I could do to put 1 foot in front of the other, but I was sure this too would pass, so I painfully gathered my things and went into Starbucks, sat down and did some computer work as the tightness & pain made it about impossible to sit it think. .  

As the pain grew increasingly worse, I  decided it was time to make my way back to the hotel I had already checked out of and see if they’d allow me to use the pool or the hot tub to loosen up before I attempted to get to the airport. 

Well wouldn’t you know it when I needed it the most I got to the hotel and this day, of all days they had a private party so the pool in the hot tub were closed. At that moment in that massive pain, I clearly thought about giving up. It hurt to stand, it hurt to walk, it hurts to sit and most of all it hurt to breathe .

I looked around at all the happy people going on with their lives, going out to the beach having fun, I cried behind my dark sunglasses and for the first time in a long time I thought about giving up.

And I sat there and I thought about what does giving up look like, How could I live in pain all the time, all alone and fulfill my dreams when I couldn’t even move. Then I shook myself and thought you can do this, you can do anything and you’re changing your life right now don’t give up!  I thought about how much I wanted to make the master key program work for me, how much I wanted to finally achieve my dreams and not allow the illness and injuries that always get in my way stop me.
And then I
I thought about how much I wanted to make the master key program work for me, how much I wanted to finally achieve my dreams and not allow the illness and injuries that always get in my way stop me.

And then I thought God has a plan for me and I can’t stop I have to fulfill that. 

  
 So I gather my senses and I just go sit by the water and you can figure it all out, you can do this!
I shoveled
So I gathered my senses and I just go sit by the water and you can figure it all out, you can do this!

I shoveled my feet, three is very shallow walked very slow movedvery small movements, I made my way to the ocean and I sat.
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very small movements, I made my way to the ocean and I sat.

As tears stream down my face and the massive waves rolled up on the beach I started to think about all that I’m learning in the master key and how much inner struggle that week in  particular I’d been having.

Then it hit me, could my back going out female blueprint fighting back? Could it once again be trying to stop me from moving forward? Because if that was true this time it definitely stopped me dead in my tracks!

Set on the beach, watch the waves, watch the Seigels has a full round me and the sailboat racing past. I let the waves take me away to a different place and at that moment I was above the pain and the words of my DMP came to mind and there, I committed to make this happen the matter what pain confronted me, who got in my way and the matter how much my Subby and my blueprint fought back!

When you Surrender to not knowing,  the Universe delivers the answer….Week 4 Master Key

                                  

Well the last few months and especially the most recent  3 1/2 weeks have been an amazing time of self discovery, looking at the world through new eyes, plus realizations and gifts from the Universe!  
It’s always been tough letting go of the many habits and what I saw as truths,  from growing up.                     I  suspect that comes from the 12 years of Catholic School and imminent fear of torture (so it seemed) if Ididn’t  follow their rules and was not the perfect little girl.  Well that was perfection by their standards, I was just too young to know any better.  

                            
It is amazing how much our younger years and those around us form not only our life at that time but so much of our future.  Whats more amazing is how long it took me to realize it and start doing something about it, though I will say I started seeing the error in my ways very early on, but I  did not have the tools and courage  to step out of the story I knew very well I didn’t belong in.

As adults we  struggle to get ahead, to tame a habit, to let go of people and things that aren’t good for us, and all the while we can’t figure out why things don’t come together the way we planned.  I recently came  to the point where I knew, after much personal work, contemplation, workshops and many failed attempts at anything else I could try to change certain recurring patterns in my life,that what was restricting me was being greatly affected by my subconcious and the lessons it learned, as a child in a somewhat dysfunctional  reality.  I knew it, but I surely didn’t know what to do about it. 

Well I will also say that I have found that when I am finally at the point of considering giving up (which does not happen often with me), that is when the answer usually arrives. It arrives in many forms, I suppose different needs require different responses.   I have had answers & solutions show up out of the blue in the form of a thought, a person, an unexpected opportunity, a gift, a winnings and even sometimes in the form of a bad situation or person. 
  Well this time just a few months back it showed up on my FaceBook page as an invitation to apply for a “Pay it Forward Scholarship” for the Master Key MasterMind Program, heck I didn’t even know what it was about.  All  I knew was that it was time for me to leap and I also knew that I had seen the Facilitators of the program, Mark & Davene, set their intention and turn their life into the Dream life they had set their sites on.  Though I am always so happy when people reach their goals and live life to the fullest, I am  tired of not attaining the life and lifestyle I & my Soul long for.   

So I decided to Go For It!!  Getting the life I long for is worth 26 weeks of my time to learn new habits and transform myself and hopefully all around me!

Well after only 3 1/2 weeks I have already found some clarity (much more to come, LOL), atttended a 4 evening bio-energy workshop as a recipient very close to home, at a time I needed it, I randoomly  met the man that will be taking photos for my upcoming book and have found that even the small wins are helping me to feel more able to move forward and take chances! 

I can’t wait to see what the future holds….Join me for the Journey won’t you?!

                                                                   

Warriors create themselves…what do I really want? Week 3

   
   

  
Well the Master Key Journey continues and week 3 has been a deep dive into the feelings that my Soul longs for and the life that will collide with those feelings, bringing me Home!                                                        

As a single mom of 22 years, who lives a life full of adventure (good, challenging and sometimes not so good).  I have always said that my Soul came here to experience everything, especially the odd – rarely ever happens kind of things.  Like how many out there can say you knocked yourself unconscious slamming your head into a wooden sign?  I mean seriously, was the Universe sending me a sign or what?  Or how about missing your exit on the Freeway after a fabulous, peaceful 4 day energy workshop in Northern California and, yes wait for it…miss your exit and land in Tijuana, Mexico after dark, all alone, no GPS, in a rental car ,YIKES is right!!! 

Or how about having three small children, getting a divorce and to keep everyone safe, move across country where you know no one and start over completely.   Thank God that one turned out great!  

In my younger years I have driven offshore race boats at 95 mph across the top of the water…AWESOME!!!    I somehow avoided going to jail once, when I was pulled over for speeding down a mountain in CA at triple digets, in a red convertible (I knew when they upgraded me to the convertible and I saw it was red, that I was in trouble!)- I have to admit, it was awesome too!  

Well my life as you can guess from the couple things I shared above,  though to outsiders may not look so rosy, has been blessed with moments I would never give back, people and places that have brought me glimpes of the feelings and life my Soul came here for, God has been good!

But now when I have to define mt Definite Major Purpose in 400 words…define what I want my life to look and feel like, to decide what I truly want the next 1/2 of my life to look like…I am stumped. 

 There is so much I want to be and do, so many loved ones I want to share my life with, a great big world I want to see and so much I want to do to help others along the way!  So how do I define it?  How do I dream bigger than big and know that this great big, wonderful Universe and its Creator will align all circumstances to bring it into exsistence?   

Well as I look back on my lfe and see how very blessed and so often surprised I have been, I wonder why my inner self holds me back,  fights me as I seek clarity and definition of my true purpose, true vision and fulfillment.   

Tonight I know for sure, I am a Warrior and this Warrior will conquer my Subconscious and define the Perfect life for me, always seeking what is in my Highest good and the Highest good of this beautiful Universe!

I AM A VISIONARY, AN INSPIRATION, A WORLD CHANGER, HAPPY, HEALTHY and READY FOR ALL THIS BEAUTIFUL WORLD HAS TO OFFER ME!

  

Prelude to Master Key week 3 

I just watched the week 3 lead in video and Mark J got me so pumped up & opened my eyes even more!!

What a week, week 2 has been! I have been putting things in order, getting answers to health issues, standing strong for myself!! No floundering, answers, resources and the right divine moments showing up at just the right time!!!  

Just the last could days, insights, peeling away the old cement and my gold has bgun to peek through!! I thought I was all in before, holy smokes I am standing in the deep end now looking at the high five and knowing to my core that this is it!!! I’m training hard, I’ve got my eye in the medal and I’m going for the Gold!!! 

Bring it on!!!!  I’m speed walking now, can’t wait to run!! 

Thanks for the Journey!!  

Here was my response today to Marks Week 3 warm up video::

Wow, wow, wow!!! Pumped up and pushing the gremlins in my head & life back!! Struggle? YES 😳 impossible? NO!! I know that I belong here & here is where I have been sent for the Rebirth, New Chapter, New Life…. The Fulfillment of my dreams and life’s purpose!! Week 2 was a struggle, but I sat with that and saw that the struggle was actually easy to make more of a challenge than a struggle!! How might you ask? Well I saw the people, situations & time wasters that were pulling at me. What did I do?! I had a long talk with myself and then I cut those cords, tightened up my MKMMA schedule and here I am Committed even stronger and excite more than ever!!! 

I love you guys! Let’s do this! 💃